I have been traveling straight for a month and a half with modeling, I have not even had one day off and Im exhausted! I have been to vegas...Daytona..mexico..and I leave for panama in 2 days. I feel as if I have lost who I am somewhere I just don't know where. I have been more moody, more negative about things that are very small and should be brushed off! I personally think its hard to manage your health, your friends, your family, your relationship and your co workers when you don't even have a moment to manage your self! I love what I do and what I do comes first, I don't want to change the person that I am because great things are happening to me every day, I want people to see the same girl they saw before all of this blessing started. People change and thats just a part of life but I always hope that whatever changes come my way are for the better! Is it possible to make everyone happy and still be able to go go go? I don't know if this is the time in my life where I need to be single so I can build for my future ? I would like to think I can have both and be a rock star! This has become a very huge problem and I can only hope things in my life will get better because what im doing means more to me then anything in the world and it is my absolute passion! I personally think this is the happiest I have ever been in my entire life and I have so many dreams ahead! I would love to buy a brand new car...cash which im close to that goal already! Then I would love to buy a small 2 bedroom house in clearwater(I love that place) from there if my tv show picks up I would like to stick with that keep traveling and maybe rent one room out to a close friend. While traveling I will finish my last 2 years of school so that if something happens to where I want to retire tv hosting or modeling I would start working for pfizer as a Pharm. rep! Of course I will still travel all the time maybe with a husband..who knows things could get crazy!
